I've dipped low in my normal cycle. So for the past week haven't felt like doing anything productive.
Usually I'm in complete control of my emotions. Having emotions is what we all share. Me losing control makes me feel weak. I hate that. I punched a hole through the drywall the other day. I allowed my anger to over rule my thoughts. Haven't done that since I was a kid.
So low cycle, stress of us moving (within next two weeks), and my own wife's cycle (altered due to the meds she takes), built up. I fixed the hole. I am damn good at what I do. That's not the point.
It's just yet another sign of my changing mental thought process, as I age.
Wednesday, 26 October 2011
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
Oct 18, '11
Weekend was really busy. One very important thing I learned. Well, two really. One was, if you have a gps, for geocaching, use it to mark where you parked, before you go into the woods.
Two, I don't have to be an asshole to everyone :)
So for the past two days, in my building, I've gotten stuck in the elevator. Not a big thing. I just wish they'd fix the elevators, totally. They spend money on them, piece by piece, but not all at once. They way they are, the techs are always trying to mesh new parts with old. A hard job. We had the door locks, for the elevators changed last year. Approx 300k just for my building. So, it comes down to money. Which sucks, when I'm stuck in the elevator.
I haven't been pondering much lately.
Two, I don't have to be an asshole to everyone :)
So for the past two days, in my building, I've gotten stuck in the elevator. Not a big thing. I just wish they'd fix the elevators, totally. They spend money on them, piece by piece, but not all at once. They way they are, the techs are always trying to mesh new parts with old. A hard job. We had the door locks, for the elevators changed last year. Approx 300k just for my building. So, it comes down to money. Which sucks, when I'm stuck in the elevator.
I haven't been pondering much lately.
Monday, 10 October 2011
Oct 10, 2011
Hmm. Thanksgiving. Many different thoughts, so we're just going to roll with it ...
I am still working, and my wife left me ... to visit her mom. A friend of mine brought me Thanksgiving dinner from where she works. So I had a nice dinner. Quiet, but nice.
I am not sure what I have extra to be thankful for. Tis the season to be thankful, I'm told. Well, Sherrie bought me a used, but efficient, net book for our anniversary. It is coming up this Friday. The net book also has a camera in it, so it will make my online stoic courses a bit easier. I don't have to keep borrowing others' laptops.
I'm thankful for Sherrie, keeping me grounded, not as a ground, but I have to make sure that I'm her ground or anchor. We've been together since 2000. Strangely enough, we met on an online dating site. I had been broken up with my past girlfriend for a few years, and pretty much had given up on the dating scene. It just happened one day, and we've been together since.
We were married in 2005, Oct 14th. We were going to get married on Halloween, but it's my mom's anniversary, and HER birthday. I know I'm a momma's boy, I just don't want to share too much stuff with her :D
So anyway, it is just a coincidence that a couple of my friends from Cambridge are coming up, and having a stop over in Ottawa on Friday. We're taking them out for dinner. When I turned 40, it was nothing special. I spent the night at home. Sherrie was in the hospital, and I was working. It was a Saturday evening. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, other than my workmate taking the on call responsibility every few hours so I could visit Sherrie.
So that being said, I'm thankful that Sherrie will be hale, and we will be entertaining guests on our anniversary. Also for, Chewie. He's a great dog. Makes Sherrie happy. And thankful that I try to keep my karma balance in check.
I am still working, and my wife left me ... to visit her mom. A friend of mine brought me Thanksgiving dinner from where she works. So I had a nice dinner. Quiet, but nice.
I am not sure what I have extra to be thankful for. Tis the season to be thankful, I'm told. Well, Sherrie bought me a used, but efficient, net book for our anniversary. It is coming up this Friday. The net book also has a camera in it, so it will make my online stoic courses a bit easier. I don't have to keep borrowing others' laptops.
I'm thankful for Sherrie, keeping me grounded, not as a ground, but I have to make sure that I'm her ground or anchor. We've been together since 2000. Strangely enough, we met on an online dating site. I had been broken up with my past girlfriend for a few years, and pretty much had given up on the dating scene. It just happened one day, and we've been together since.
We were married in 2005, Oct 14th. We were going to get married on Halloween, but it's my mom's anniversary, and HER birthday. I know I'm a momma's boy, I just don't want to share too much stuff with her :D
So anyway, it is just a coincidence that a couple of my friends from Cambridge are coming up, and having a stop over in Ottawa on Friday. We're taking them out for dinner. When I turned 40, it was nothing special. I spent the night at home. Sherrie was in the hospital, and I was working. It was a Saturday evening. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, other than my workmate taking the on call responsibility every few hours so I could visit Sherrie.
So that being said, I'm thankful that Sherrie will be hale, and we will be entertaining guests on our anniversary. Also for, Chewie. He's a great dog. Makes Sherrie happy. And thankful that I try to keep my karma balance in check.
Sunday, 9 October 2011
Oct 09, 2011
Today, I was on call (started my on call on Friday). Since I woke up, I was running between emergencies. I had breakfast around 2:30pm. Supper was around 7pm. I didn't get to start my regular cleaning and such, until after 5pm. Normally, my regular stuff gets done between 8am-12pm. It was just crazy busy.
One of three weeks, I am on call. 17 weeks of the year, I am on call. I look at it as, I work 40 hours a week, and then 1 of 3, weeks, I pay my rent with labour. I won't get into the specifics here. Labour often allows me to think clearly. Today, I was just in reaction mode. No conscious thought required.
So today, I don't have much to say. It has taken me about 20 minutes to get this far.
More tomorrow. Oh, I don't bother to label my posts. I am more anonymous with out being tagged.
One of three weeks, I am on call. 17 weeks of the year, I am on call. I look at it as, I work 40 hours a week, and then 1 of 3, weeks, I pay my rent with labour. I won't get into the specifics here. Labour often allows me to think clearly. Today, I was just in reaction mode. No conscious thought required.
So today, I don't have much to say. It has taken me about 20 minutes to get this far.
More tomorrow. Oh, I don't bother to label my posts. I am more anonymous with out being tagged.
Friday, 7 October 2011
Oct 07, 2011
http://gawker.com/5847344/what-everyone-is-too-polite-to-say-about-steve-jobs
Okay, that's over with, now to my thoughts.
Happy Turkey Day. You should be thankful everyday for the gods who blew life into your clay bodies. Be thankful for the wind spirits who help you wick away your sweat, as you try to contribute to society. Be thankful for Apollo who guides your day, and warms your skin. Be thankful for the Crone, as she hides your shadow, when you hunt for food.
Even be thankful for the faerie who find your keys, when you are in a rush.
Okay, that's over with, now to my thoughts.
Happy Turkey Day. You should be thankful everyday for the gods who blew life into your clay bodies. Be thankful for the wind spirits who help you wick away your sweat, as you try to contribute to society. Be thankful for Apollo who guides your day, and warms your skin. Be thankful for the Crone, as she hides your shadow, when you hunt for food.
Even be thankful for the faerie who find your keys, when you are in a rush.
Thursday, 6 October 2011
Oct 06, 2011
I think the hobby of geo-caching is quite addictive.
This is my last night of freedom (for 7 days, due to my going on call), so I wanted to go an get at least 2 caches. Even though I was waiting for the Daws to come over and play in the "Library", I figured I'd be able to get at least 1. Michel called, and we rescheduled for after the holiday weekend. No harm, no foul.
Call it Urban Exploring, or a Treasure Hunt, or whatever, it is still a fun pastime. Remember those "Find 8 Differences" cartoons in the newspaper, years and years ago? It is very similar. You go to a gps posted location, and you look for something out of place. Hard to do, when you haven't seen the before picture before the after picture.
I found 4 of 6, the last two I wasn't able to see, since the sun went down an hour prior. That makes 127 finds since I started in August. See: http://www.geocaching.com/ and search for GumbyGern.
In this 'game' you can relive your victories, by listing the previously found listings. I'm not a sports person, nor a jock. Didn't play sports when I was in school, or was part of any team really. However, I feel good seeing my posts/logs written and my pictures I've taken, while I've been caching. Every cache out there was placed by a person. My logs (unless the cache was crap), thanks the person for bringing me to that one spot, to see what they see. http://www.geocaching.com/seek/cache_details.aspx?guid=486eea18-fdf2-4258-a7ab-b37a46db5725 In this one I was able to see the sun set, while on a hill, in Nepean (off Courtwood cres). I'm not sure if you'll be able to see it. I use a Gumby figurine as my avatar.
Every time someone posts a log, for that one cache, the owner gets an email, telling them what the person said. I think it's cool that I can have fun, and be able to add a good word to someone without even going out of my way, to be nice. Not sure how to say that, but sometimes one positive email can make someone's day better, for a minimal effort.
Plus I like the 'hunt'.
This is my last night of freedom (for 7 days, due to my going on call), so I wanted to go an get at least 2 caches. Even though I was waiting for the Daws to come over and play in the "Library", I figured I'd be able to get at least 1. Michel called, and we rescheduled for after the holiday weekend. No harm, no foul.
Call it Urban Exploring, or a Treasure Hunt, or whatever, it is still a fun pastime. Remember those "Find 8 Differences" cartoons in the newspaper, years and years ago? It is very similar. You go to a gps posted location, and you look for something out of place. Hard to do, when you haven't seen the before picture before the after picture.
I found 4 of 6, the last two I wasn't able to see, since the sun went down an hour prior. That makes 127 finds since I started in August. See: http://www.geocaching.com/ and search for GumbyGern.
In this 'game' you can relive your victories, by listing the previously found listings. I'm not a sports person, nor a jock. Didn't play sports when I was in school, or was part of any team really. However, I feel good seeing my posts/logs written and my pictures I've taken, while I've been caching. Every cache out there was placed by a person. My logs (unless the cache was crap), thanks the person for bringing me to that one spot, to see what they see. http://www.geocaching.com/seek/cache_details.aspx?guid=486eea18-fdf2-4258-a7ab-b37a46db5725 In this one I was able to see the sun set, while on a hill, in Nepean (off Courtwood cres). I'm not sure if you'll be able to see it. I use a Gumby figurine as my avatar.
Every time someone posts a log, for that one cache, the owner gets an email, telling them what the person said. I think it's cool that I can have fun, and be able to add a good word to someone without even going out of my way, to be nice. Not sure how to say that, but sometimes one positive email can make someone's day better, for a minimal effort.
Plus I like the 'hunt'.
Monday, 3 October 2011
Oct 02-03. 2011
While traveling with one of the geo-cachers, he mentioned along the lines of you cannot judge a book by it's covers. I know that, but it occurred to me, that maybe he thought I was being judgemental. I'll have to rethink some of my 'aires'. I am blissfully unaware of my outward appearance.
I'll have to think some more.
I'll have to think some more.
Saturday, 1 October 2011
Sept 30 and Oct 01, 2011
Friday was busy at work. But I got things done.
Saturday, I went to the states, to get food and clothes (mostly for Sherrie), then back to Ottawa, and visited with my sister. I met her new beau, and was told to be on my best behaviour. Which I was, but wasn't comfortable. But she was okay with it, so that's all that matters.
Tomorrow I'm leaving early to go to Oka, and some surrounding area, for two geo caching events. So, I'm getting my tools ready, and then getting ready for bed. Gotta be up and out before I normally wake up. I'll be picked up by a guy I don't respect. All in all, he's a normal guy, who is almost twice my age. Well, not really, but he acts it. I'd say he's only 20 years older than me, but I'm 40, and he behaves like I'm 10. Whatever. The trip is for me, and not about him. He's just helping me get there, and back. It's all good.
More, maybe tomorrow.
Saturday, I went to the states, to get food and clothes (mostly for Sherrie), then back to Ottawa, and visited with my sister. I met her new beau, and was told to be on my best behaviour. Which I was, but wasn't comfortable. But she was okay with it, so that's all that matters.
Tomorrow I'm leaving early to go to Oka, and some surrounding area, for two geo caching events. So, I'm getting my tools ready, and then getting ready for bed. Gotta be up and out before I normally wake up. I'll be picked up by a guy I don't respect. All in all, he's a normal guy, who is almost twice my age. Well, not really, but he acts it. I'd say he's only 20 years older than me, but I'm 40, and he behaves like I'm 10. Whatever. The trip is for me, and not about him. He's just helping me get there, and back. It's all good.
More, maybe tomorrow.
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