Sept 22, 11. Mid life

I figure I'm going through my midlife crisis. I think like an adolescent about 90% of the day. Fortunately, I still have common sense, and don't act on my impulses. But I will have to keep myself in check. I wonder if my stamina is the same, as it was 25 years ago :D

I've been noticing the mental changes, for the past three years. However, it has only been a month or so, that I've been aware of my changing thought patterns. The thoughts are mostly stupid fantasies. I interact with many people during the day, and it is not conductive for me to be so distracted. So, I keep myself as active as possible, to prevent my mind from being idle. The thoughts become more prevailing when I feel my mental cycle dip low. I do suffer from depression, and have worked out my cycles. I know not to do anything rash when my cycle is low. Even when my cycle is on a high, I still have the capacity to figure out all the options, not just the apparent ones.